Passionately Valerie

Paano mapapawi ang pighati? kung ang damdami'y dama ang sidhi Mga mata'y nanangis anumang pagkukubli Sa kabila ng mga ngiting gumuguhit sa labi Paano matatahan ang pusong nanaghoy? Kalungkutang sa puso'y dumadaloy Unti-unting paglubog sa kawalan ng kumunoy Ang pasakit, hirap at poot ay nagpapatuloy Paano maiibsan ang nadaramang pagod? Sa buong katawan at puso'y humahagod Sa buong pagkatao'y siyang bumubuod Pumapawi ng sigla at lakas ng tuhod Paano muling bubhayin ang pusong nawalan ng sigla? Kung ang dating alab nito'y unti-unting nawala Napalitan ng lumbay, lungkot at tuluyang pagkasawa Ang dating magiliw na pagsunod, wala na nga't wala Pusong nalipasan ng gutom sa paghihikayat at pag-unawa Naubusan ng pangarap, nilisan na ng pag-asa Pusong nanlamig, pusong wala ng sinta Kung ialay pa rin sa iyo ay para saan pa?

As a late celebration of my birthday, my fabulous girlfriends Thea, Kring and I decided to get together at Atrium in Mega mall, it was a long and fun lunch at Amici. Warming up the conversation was effortless, it's like we were sisters separated from birth.

Kay gandang balikan, isang araw ng Martes sa UP :)

Solitude is a gift wrapped in inner peace in this strident and worldly environment... what better way can there be to restore oneself than in moments of solitude... :)

What can be a better way to spend a saturday than with your beautiful girlfriends! so happy to see again Myre Visperas, Dimpy Diokno Peralta and Ate Fashionico Parlorista, our boyfriend(s) Patrick, Myre's Bal and Dimpy's Deo are just bonuses haha, peace guys! till next time :)

View from the bus via SCTEX Subic to Manila :) lots of blue and green because our route will be via sctex there will be no more stop over in San Fernando, Pampanga, it will be a long but straight trip to Manila :) Short trips like this would really make me say that Philippines is truly beautiful, di naman tayo nahuhuli sa ibang bansa, only if we will try to discover it :)

Tonight is bitter-sweet because it is my last night home. Tomorrow I will have to be brave and gather all the confidence that I need to finish the editing of my paper. Target time, I must be able to submit my final draft this December and hopefully by February I will be able to deliver my final defense. Being home made me realize that our town is slowly opening its door to so many opportunities for me in terms of career and business. I can teach or if God willing practice law. Slowly I am immersed as well to some of our little businesses and other matters that needs taking care of such as finances and of course most important of all the health of my mom and dad. Makoy is already fourth year and soon he will be in college.. I am so proud of him and I am going to miss him when I leave. I enjoyed bonding with our pets cats and dogs alike, cleaning the house, redecorating our kitchen minor cooking here and there but most important of all my biggest project was my room. Turning it all in...

"There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."- Carl Jung It is from these inspiring words of Carl Jung that I take inspiration to just relax and appreciate the continuity of life, the happiness of being still, the importance of a silent passage in my life. Just a few months back I am in a situation that is very different from where I am right now, I used to be working while studying for graduate school then I stopped working to focus on graduate school and then I pursued law. Simultaneously during these times I was also performing the role of an only child caught in the duties responsibilities that comes with it; and a lover who is committed to save her relationship that is being challenged by distance and lack of time for each other. With all the plenty of things t...

How did life become so serious? Hmmm well I’d say just now. I am not saying this to complain, I simply want to ask it to the world and leave my questioning to hit someone with a giant question mark. (?) I thought that I didn’t seem to miss high school that much when I became a college student until recently. College provided less restrictions and regulations in terms of self-expression, values and faith. Freedom on one hand is not alone, it comes with great responsibilities. When I was granted with more freedom my responsibilities became greater as well. It multiplied twice, thrice and higher. Graduation came along; I became an adult granted with greater freedom and definitely with greater responsibilities. The only more serious thing about responsibility is actually being responsible. To have so many choices and options and still decide to choose the right thing, the valued decision, the moral, the upright. Then suddenly freedom became a serious matter. Little by little I reminisced m...

*** with Patrick during the wedding of Deo and Dimples*** What a great start to wake up listening to a beautiful song. This is one of my favorite "La Vie En Rose" by Louis Armstrong. It means life through rose colored glasses, literally life in pink! :) Below is also a video I put together using fuchsia and taupe as theme. There comes a point in every relationship especially for a couple who has been together for seven years to imagine how their dream wedding would be, well at least to me hehe. Since this is my page I took the liberty on imagining how it would be. This is how i pictured mine. Some pictures are originally taken by me while the wedding pictures were borrowed from various resulting images from google image search engine. This is to give credit and acknowledge the copyright of the images that I borrowed. Thank you Here is the English version copied from: (http://lyricstranslate.com/en/la-vien-en-rose-life-rosy-hues.html) Life in Rosy Hues Eyes tha...

***Bday present from Nonoys*** ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Here goes 25 years, life happens so fast, either it was too fast or perhaps I just enjoyed the ride. Since today is my birthday, I took a pause to recall what have happened in the past 25 years. I just jotted briefly in bullets what I can remember in each year spontaneously. For all the triumphs, and defeats, and the silent times in between, thank you Lord God for everything, to the coming years, hopefully to the next 25 more, la vie est belle :) 1986: 0- Birth; my mother participated in the EDSA People Power not knowing at the time that I was already in her womb 1987: 1- from age 1 to 2 I really don’t think that I have any recollection yet. 1988: 2- they said that I giggle a lot whenever I see Birchtree Milk commercial. 1989: 3- age that I started to have some sort of recollection; first in mind is a lady always on our...

If a friend were to be a flower Certainly in my mind there would be no other A daisy would hint to me a smile While waving at me from a thousand mile It would soothe my sadness and melancholy It would brighten my day with cheerfulness and glee Through its intense color of white, pink or yellow Perhaps it would whisper in my ear a simple hello Oh dear flower friend I hope you could keep me company Endow me a beautiful sight like a honey bee If indeed a friend were to be a flower Without doubt in my mind it would be you and no other -Valerie May Cruz June 23, 2009